haha...

why should I care? why?

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for those whose wondering what happened in my last post, dont worry. its nothing in particular. its just a sum of broken promises, me to others and others to me. its also once a very controversial topic between me and SY. good times aye...

AK came back to new zealand, ICF activities is on the run again, a few more mates on the way back to windy welly. 2006? whats it gonna be?

Promises

...what happened to them?

people might ask, what is the hardest thing to do? earn enough wealth for 10 generations, before its depleted? fly without the help of any machine? travel in the speed of light? sing 10 octave higher than you usual can? to kill without giving any thoughts? finish a 50,000 words report in 2 hours time? swim accross Atlantic ocean? climb Mount. Everest by exposing every inch of your skin?

or merely, fullfulling a little promise you made just a liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittle while ago?

I dont know what happened to them. I have only myself to blame. and I'm sorry.

Reminder?

a split second. a lighting spark. heart beat quickening. blood traveling in speed of sound. abrupt pause on lung activities. sudden lack of oxygen.

had already forgotten how it feels.

On and on

maybe its like this, things arent always what you want them to be. this is a brainless thing to say. after 21 years living, being part of this eco-system, I ought to know aye...

but still...

things are getting pretty out of hand lately, with all the flatting problems, CV hassle, enduring the loneliness. to be short, i m pretty fucked. now that things are falling into places, I finally get to sit down and think about my blog. this particular post is not the result of the thoughts I put on my blog. its merely... the process. some movements for my fingers to pass time. it goes on and on and on and on... better stop now...

and on and on...

Not beauty...

just as i was contemplating... this popped out in between pages of Cloud of Sparrows, by Takashi Matsuoka.

"Beauty can be colder than the harshest winter's day. It is love, not beauty, that warms."

The ugliest cake...

...but the sweetest moment...

Happy Belated B'day Grace!

A Series of Unfortunate Events 2006

it starts here...

1. locked my keys in the car during the trip down south
2. ... and then a flat tyre (cost me 110 bucks for a new one)
3. being ditch around as a homeless piece of shit
3. backpack stolen by some jerk (half of my clothings gone)
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4. whats next? bring it on man, bring it on...

Sunset on Highway No. 1

(29.01.2006, 6.36pm)

was driving in the golden ray, when i abruptly stopped my car at the side of the road and took this picture.

Chinese New Year

in between armies of pine trees, below the starry night, the ocean was roaring. I was lying on the lean-down driver's seat of my rented Nissan Sunny, looking out the window, with JA dead asleep beside me. today was what chinese call "year 30th day", in other words, a day where chinese throughout the world have reunion dinner with their families, the day before Chinese New Year.

under the murky lights of the stars, there was a sudden shiver down my spine.

I miss my family.

Zi Xiang's'

in Syndey International Airport

Siu Lam Gong Fu Hou...

Hou Hou yeah...

Its Coming!!

The Waves!!

Sydney Opera House

finally there...

Just Another Morning

sitting on my chair in my cold cold room, facing my laptop. look out the window.

(thought: shit, its raining so heavily outside. just came back yesterday night from sydney, hoping today would be a nice day, could go for coffee or so...go away rain, go away...)

couldnt bare the bright reflection of the wet scene, I sweep my glance back to the screen.

(thought: last few days in this flat huh? gonna miss it... what should i have for breakfast? dont have any food... cant go out for food cause of the rain)

my mouth whispering the lyric of the song playing on my computer.

(thought: hm...)




(thought: hm...)




(thought: damn I'm hungry...)

As One

when the sea and sky merge as one, you'll know its a fine day. fine day it was.

at Mount Maunganui's peak, the gentle sea breeze was sliding across my skin, as if i'm standing in between forever running velvet. though the sun was harsh, but the warmth was having a hard time reaching us with the chillin breeze in the way.

230 metres below, two little island was parking not far away from the long streched beach. in between, were tiny dots of people swimming, playing with the waves. the white sand separates the blue sea and green grass, after the grass was a black road. layers of different world being mend together.

alone on the rocks, face to the sea, i could hear from behind, footsteps at ease, strolling from side to side. tourists chattering away. laughter occassionally cracking out.

the breath of the sea continued to embrace everything in its way, i closed my eyes, everything as one.

Gollum loves Christmas!

Goodbyes

under a sand of stars, on the murky streets of Kelburn, the only light shining down on me was the moon. walking alone, yet another chance for me to refresh my mind, and think about what has happened during the past month, and what has yet to become the present.

December. its a huge month for goodbyes.

parents leaving middle earth, after their sons' and daugthers' graduation. friends departing for home country. trips to south island. myself traveling. those whom I was able to hang out with without a hassle, are now friends in distance. physically.

how are ya'll doing?

Its been a year..

since i started writing.

a year ago roughly this time, i was writing something about "time for everything". another christmas has come huh... how will it be this time i wonder?

A Series of Unfortunate Events (reprise)

11. worst of all, my parents are coming this saturday for my graduation. cept there is no graduation to go to.

sorry, but i have to say something.

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